Really funny how some people bash the Twilight novels when I know for sure they never read it and can never write. AT ALL.
Kung bibigyan ka nang isa pang pagkakataon para ulitin ang buhay mo, uulitin mo ba ito ng walang pagbabago?
Kung bibigyan ako nang isa pang pagkakataon para ulitin ang buhay ko, oo, yung iba, uulitin ko, pero yung iba? Sana hindi na mangyari pa.
Kung bibigyan ako ng isa pang pagkakataon para ulitin ang buhay ko, sisiguraduhin kong ako na ang mahal mo, ngunit kung sa isa pang pagkakataon ay hindi pa rin tayong dalawa, uulitin at uulitin ko pa rin ang panahong nakilala at mga oras na kasama kita. Kung sa isa pang pagkakataon ay hindi pa rin tayong dalawa, sigurado akong mamahalin pa rin kita. Kahit gaano kasakit, kahit gaano kahirap, dahil mahal kita. Kung sa isa pang pagkakataon ay hindi pa rin tayong dalwa, ikaw at ikaw pa rin, walang iba. Uulitin ko pa rin ang maging kaibigan ka, kahit hanggang dun na lang, dahil mahal kita.
Well, I say…
“Never love a swimmer because they will let you swim in their lies, false promises, and their fucking fuckity fuck fuck.”
- 10th of November, 2011, 2 days before my 17th birthday.
How could I reminisce when there is no past?
Ugh. Fuckity fuck fuck fuckery.
Does the word ‘fuckity’ and ‘fuckery’ do even exist?
I am ugly. I am alone. I am clingy. I am everything-that-a-boy-can-never-want.
I never expected anything in return because I already knew that there will be nothing in return for me.
Is it really too much of me if I ask for one last hug and a one last goodbye? I don’t even know why we drifted apart.
I never wanted anything but friendship, but even that was taken away from me.
Is it really too much of me if I ask for an explanation why is he acting like this? He ignores me like he never know me. He keeps a distance that left me feeling like I have a contagious disease.
Is it really too much of me? Is everything I am too much?
These irrational tears are falling. I know I don’t have a place and didn’t have a place in his life, but hell, c’mon people, those fucking 3 months were enough to prove that I will always be here for him and those fucking 3 months were enough to prove that he is just nothing but a user and a jerk like any other man.
And honestly? I am sick of this. This cycle of stupidity. When will I ever learn?
Because, I know, at the end of the day, I am the only one who’s hurting.
The times that I’m with you felt like home.
I am homesick.
2011 went by so fast that it was just like clicking a button - No, okay, I’m exaggerating, but don’t you think? For me it passed like a blur, it seems so fast that I feel like I need more time from that year.
Anyway, this year was filled of My firsts and My lasts, obviously, my last highschool year has ended and now, I’m still in the middle of being a Freshie, in college. Though it has been a great year, I had a lot of wrong turns that make it real rough, and honestly, the last days of 2011 (including the holiday season) were the most saddest days of the year.
Sooooo… What I really wanted to share is the rundown of my 2011. Major events, actually. :P
Here it is! :P
January - 24th. My Last Prom was held at Edsa Shangri-La with Eduard as my entrance partner. =)) This was a whole lot of fun! I had 17 dance partners. =))
February - 25th. Battle of the Bands and Street dance Competition! =))
With my Euphoria:
And with my Fracture:
March - 19th. Pasamasid. My C.A.T. Graduation. =)) Bye Cadette/Major S3.
25th. The Last Hurrah. My Highschool Graduation. St. James College of Quezon City.
OKAY! Once a JAMESIAN, ALWAYS a Jamesian.
April and May - SUMMER VACATION!
II - Courage Reunion =))
With my KRASCI MEN!
With my Family! =)) First Baguio Trip. =))
June - 7th. First day of Classes as a THOMASIAN EDUCATION STUDENT. =))
Here’s my 1E1 ♥
By the way, next year, I’m gonna be an English Major, so Hooray! =))
July - 9th. Opening of UAAP 74th season at Marikina Sports Complex. First UAAP! =))
August - 6th. Thomasion Freshmen Welcome Walk! Oh yeeeeah! It’s official this day. :)
23rd. My First Performance EVER in UST. Education’s Pasiklaband. Battle of acoustic bands. :)
Yep baby, I’m the vocalist of Antipara - my band’s name. :) Sorry for the weird face expression. XD
September. Uhm, I totally forgot about this month. Wonder why. Sorry!
October. SEMBREAK BABY. =))
Here’s my grades anyway: XD
November - Oh I have tons of kwentos. :))
11-11-11. The most famous. =))
On that day, I had my Majorship exams for English and Science. Luckily, I passed both. I’m gonna be an English teacher someday! YEEY! After the exam, I went straight at UST field where LAKAS PINAS! Concert was being held. It was hella fun except for the bitchy weather! It rained so hard, I’m soaking wet! Literally. :) I’m with my Simon and Yhenny that day. =))
12th. MY 17TH BIRTHDAY!
I was surprised by this beautiful bunch of people! =))
18th. Hype! Competition.
I never mentioned that I’m a part of an awesome dance troupe right? Now you know! I’m a member of Project Pax, a university-wide dance troupe in UST under the Pax Romana. I don’t have any picture with the whole group, but here’s my other dancemates, Simon and Yhenny! with Ate Bern and Orange. :)
Hey Ena! Thanks for the shot! =))
The most beautiful month of the year! :)
15th. Simbang Gabi in UST! and Pre-Paskuhan Concert Party! =))
And yes, PAROKYA NI EDGAR’S VOCALIST. =)) AND YES, I am that close. :)
16th. MY FIRST UST PASKUHAN! ♥
My Sis and Mom. ♥
28th. Mom’s Birthday!
30th. My last bonding this year with my KRASCI MEN! too bad, we don’t have photos that day! We watched at the SM North Edsa’s Moviehouse, Enteng ng Ina mo, as always, it was FUN! ♥
And… Right NOW! 31st.
I’m typing my 2011 timeline! ♥ I missed my tumblr so much! We didn’t have internet connection for almost a month, luckily, today, I got it fixed!
So there! Here’s my run-down of my 2011. And I’m currently counting the time to 2012! And by the way, let’s not fuck 2012 up huh?
PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME.
I’m Mone Virma Ginry P. Gumapac. A 17 year old Filipina from the College of Education of the University of Santo Tomas, wishing you a very HAPPY NEW YEAR! =))
IT AIN’T THE END OF THE WORLD! ♥
May dance troupe kasi na yun yung pangalan.
Ano nga kaya? Hmm…
I didn’t evern notice that I reached my 5000th post mark. I am supposed to make it so special. Darn. I’ll just wait for 5555. =))
As I was surfing tumblr, I explored the tag “swim” and I found the quote above.
It hit me so hard that I almost cried.
Why? Why now? When I just thought you’re one of the person who will never leave me. I never ask you for anything and yet you left me. I don’t know if the current pulled you away from me or it is really you that swam away from me.
The ocean of sadness has come to drown me. You taught me how to swim but you never taught me how to do it without you. You left me drowning. Why? I tried to drown my sorrows but every time I try to forget you, memories wash away my numbness.
Why now? Why? Save me. :(